one good reason why i shouldnt kill myself?
give one reason to not kill myself, im 18 years old weighing 130 pounds i havent ate in 2 days because i just wanna die, i have 2 diseases (crohn’s disease and kidney stones) and i keep getting sick longest i have been without being sick is one month, my friends hate me because i dont have time to spend with them, im overwhelmed with school, my parents are fed up with me because i cant stay healthy, my ex left me becasue i got crohn’s disease was her reason. day after day im believeing less and less in God. give me one good reason why i should not kill myself and if you dont have a reason plz tell me the fastest and cleanest way to kill my self. i dont wanna shot my self and i dont wanna jump off a building is there a drug?
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24 comments
tmin on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
my brotha, I know how you feel, been there done that,250 5′8 solid very independent no one tells me what to do, a crash on a quad ended all of that. wheel chair bond paralyzed from the waste down, couldn’t go to the bathroom by my self, bed pans only every time i did, some little honey of a candy stripper would have to clean me up, my friends, I cried every time, so much that the staff in the hospital would start to cry. For months I just wanted to die, wanted to hang my self in the hospital but couldn’t move, two months later still feeling worthless, i was in a rehab hospital to learn how to take care of my self when I some one that change my whole out look on every thing I knew, a little old lady in a wheel chair, the only thing she could move was her eyes, never felt sorry for my self again. (not that you are feeling sorry for your self) Thanks to her I pressed on, meds helped me throw the pain, today seven years later I can walk again, can’t run but that’s okay.
Just hang in there you may not know it now, but you will be save by your own little old lady, she just wont look like the one that saved me, for all I know it could have been God dressed as that little old lady.
so please my friend, hang in there it will get better.
Jay on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
because the computers in hell are only 386’s running windows 3.1.
rpetch007 on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
wow my reason is that i would like to be your friend please give me the chance.. thank you…
godmothersara on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
god loves you he would put you through anything you cant handle your 18 you have your whole life ahead of you. you can go to the a doctor and have your pain controled i know someone who has crohn’s and she servies everday. your 18 and life is hard at that age and the ex if that was her reason for leaving you then you dont need them. try not to concentrate on the bad and look forward to the good. your friends and family do not hate you they just dont like to see you in pain all the time.
NickelN9ne on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
No one will give you advice on killing yourself here… Your best advice is you pretty much need professional help… O and no offense but people have it a lot worse then you… Health wise or not.
LJG on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
Because the people who haven’t stuck by you were not worthy of you. Because getting through this stage of your life is going to make you stronger in the long run. Because God has reasons for letting this sickness stay with you, even though you and those around you may not be able to see them. Because you are a worthy person, regardless of your physical constraints. Because kidney stones are treatable, and while I don’t know enough about Crohn’s disease, I know that when you are ill with ANYTHING that it is an opportunity to become stronger. Because suicide is a coward’s way out, and because it’s not an answer to your problems, and because it leaves those you have left behind suffering more than you could imagine.
Eat. Drink. Pray. Don’t pray for life to get easier. Pray to be stronger. You will overcome.
Good luck, and God bless.
AmericanPatriot on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
dude, my wife has crohn’s… it sucks being sick i am sure, just watching her be sick and feeling so helpless sucks…. id say to find some new friends… ones who understand and are not superficial…. your girlfriend, dude, youll find true love, but only if you are alive… kidney stones just hurt, they are temporary, so just take it all in stride sir. Stay strong, be a man, not a boy, suck it up and dont let the world beat you down. peace.
Orlando on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
r u crazy ? don’t kill yourself….repent and believe in Jesus Christ….read the Holy Bible
Aldo M on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
I say don’t be such a pussy. A lot of us go through times like these when we feel like every thing is caving in and there’s nothing you can do about it, it gives you experience to face other issues later on. Just ride it out and eventually it’ll start working it’s self out. If you are so sick as you say, you wont need a method of killing yourself… the worst that can happen is that you die from that disease so hold on.
alonz_oh_francis on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
i would have to tell you you should’nt kill yourself, it’s just the way you are GOD made you that way, suicide is a sin in GOD’S law. so live and be happy w/ everyday, breath, and heart beat GOD has given you, love yourself, think positive not negative. GOD BLESS YOUR HEART.
mike_bellnj on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
DON’T DO IT!! Your young and have a whole lifetime of memories still to live. If they truly are your Friends they would support you! Ask your friends for help with school work. Your parents might seam fed up with you and you illnesses but I’m deep down inside they truly love you! Killing yourself will hurt them far worst then any illness or disease you have. As far a women go there a dime a dozen go out and find a better one. There are plenty of fish in the sea.
ONE GOOD REASON IS I CARE!!
If you need to talk you can hit me up on my email mike_bellnj@yahoo.com
Mizz Chloe on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
First off, I am very sorry about your problems.
Secondly, Stop, tell someone how you feel and DON’T KILL YOURSELF!! Think about how many people you’ll be hurting! You obviously need help. Your friends arent understanding enough, don’t dwell on what they’ve done you need to make new friends who understand you. And i’m sure your parents aren’t fed up because your ill, they are probaly fed up that they cant do anything to help you!
Slvrpawz on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
No! Suicide is never an answer NOR a question. You are obviously going thru some really painful times emotionally and physically..I don’t know you, but don’t mistake what I’m saying for pity, unless that’s what you want, but I will pray for God to gie you strength..you must have something to of value to the world or you wouldn’t be here. Search beyond your pain, to your interests, things you like, I know it’s hard to look for pleasure in the midst of misery, but it CAN be found. I know this from personal experience. Wisker strokz to ya,,meow
TheHonorableReese on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
Don’t wuss out on life and kill yourself; I’m not going to tell you it’s all ok because it’s probably not. What I will tell you is that actually giving life another try and figuring out a way to fix it is much better than being a dumbass and killing yourself. Yeah sure, people will be sad. But then they’ll say "that was a really stupid thing he did, I wish he thought about it more". Stop trying to get the sympathy plea, stand up, be a man and fix things.
Alright, so you have Crohn’s, which I am aware can be very debilitating at times (I’m a P.A. student, so I have seen people with Chrohn’s in the hospital). I’m sorry that you ended up with this disease, but it could be a lot worse. You could have Parkinson’s Disease and lose your ability to walk and speak. You could develop brain cancer and have only 6 painful months to live. Or you could be dead, which you have foolishly considered. Obviously, the best option is to do all you can to live your life around it, and shove aside people who want to bring you down because of it. Do your friends and parents think less of you because of your condition? F*ck ‘em: get new friends and get an apartment away from your parents. Ex dumps you because of it? Good, now you know that she is a shallow b*tch who singles out people’s faults and disabilities.
I think you’ve gotten the short end of the stick a lot of places here, but I also think it could be a lot better if you tried harder to make it better. If you were perfect and healthy in every single way, some people would still treat you like sh1t; that’s just life. You need to set your own standards for yourself, forget what people say and spend time around those who agree with you.
Hey, I’m not being harsh because of what’s happened to you, but you should know that suicide is the stupidest thing you can do to solve a problem: you die, come on! What type of good solution is that? How are you winning and making things better? I’m not in your position so I can’t judge you, sure, but I absolutely guarantee you there are 100 things you haven’t tried yet, and one of them is going to work. Forget about these thoughts, and tomorrow start off trying to fix things up again.
Callisto on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
All suicide method’s are messy at the least, if not downright painful.
I’m not allowed to kill myself, and the following constitute a few of the reasons my friends give me:
1) No matter what you believe, you will be missed
2) A day will come when you’re not sick
3) Just because some stupid cow left you doesn’t mean someone better isn’t out there waiting to meet you
3) Parents leave you alone when you move out and tell them to
4) True friends understand, and you always make time for them
5) God may or may not be real, but YOU are real, and YOU create your reality
And yes, I know what Crohn’s is etc, and it sucks
Have you tried accupuncture/alternative medicine ie herbs? My sister has something similar and it seems to help her.
Despite our beliefs, life IS worth living. If you can throw yourself into life for a year, properly, without reservation, hesistation or regret, and still want to kill yourself… Then it’s time to see a psych
Good luck sweetie, and if you need to talk, I’m email-able.
agave_1986 on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
Dude, I am falling apart at the seams as well. I’m 20 and I hurt all the time. The longest I go without an injury is about a week and my sport of choice is still Judo. My joints are deteriorating and I will be lucky to not be wheelchair bound at 40. I’m overwhelmed with school; I live with my mother; I’m unemployed; my joints will probably prevent me from ever having a job that I like.
I still have Jesus and Judo.
Being jacked up is no reason to kill yourself. That is the sissy way out. Stand up, grow a pair, and take it like a man. Take Judo: it teaches you to get back up or fight when you fall; it hurts like hell but it is well worth it.
Also, think of your grandma. How would she feel if you killed yourself? Don’t be an asshole to her.
runnttombobob on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
because you go to hell if you do. hell may not be fire and brimstone, hell could be a place where you relive your last days of life before you kill yourself over and over again. eternal torment doesn’t sound much easier does it.
what you should do is eat, get better, and live positively for others. death only cheats yourself out of living life and is selfish.
CRUZ on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
Hi I’m Donna and I’m thinking your very lonely and need someone to talk to,i want you to know if you want a friend to talk with I’m here any time OK,life is how you make it,if you want to give up and stop looking for the good things that can make you hole again more fool you because its out there if you want to be happy,but it comes back to you wanting to put in the hard work and find yourself again and when you do people will start to notice you and the goodness in you,you will be surprised at the things that are good in life if you start thinking on finding them.Wish you all the happiness that you do deserve.
ye_river_xiv on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
A drug? Pretty much any way that isn’t instantaneous and very messy will require some length of suffering and weakness. And even if you could, do you really think being dead would make you feel better? Maybe it will end your pain, but it will end everything else for you too. I’d try to stick around until I was absolutely positive that there was no way at all for me to get any more pleasure out of life.
Do you think strangers can give you any reasons to live? We’ve never even heard of you until now, but there are people who do know you, and would know if you have reasons to live. You’ve got friends and family that are sad you aren’t healthy. You’ve got an ex that was too scared to stick around and see you die. Why? Don’t you think it’s because they care about whether or not you live or die?
Ask them what you have to live for. Tell them your troubles and ask them what they can do to help. What have you got to loose? Are you afraid it would kill you to ask them?
Agony Aunt 17 on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
Sympathy may not be what you want but its what your gonna get from me. I am shocked at an eighteen year old being shunned by friends and girlfriend – but worse parents! Your friends you are probably better without – harsh, I know – but if they were real mates they would stick by you through out your illnesses and they wouldnt abandon you. Your ex needs to grow up. I know how tough it is to live with someone who is constantly ill – my father has been in a wheelchair since I was ten and is getting worse – but you get past these things with a person because you care about them. You continue to stick by them no matter what, thats what loving/caring for someone is.
I DONT think that killing yourself is the right answer. It saddens me you even think it, but I know, Iv been there too. A lot of teens have when their stuck in such terrible situations. But its not worth it because then you miss out on the things that make you smile. PLEASE DONT kill yourself. It would be a complete shame for someone so young to take that action when there is plenty of help out there. You may not want to hear this, but have you ever thought of seeing a counciller or ringing the Samaritians or something???They can help. Thats what they are there for. They have exerience with people with suicide issues and really can help you through whatever trauma is going on in your life.
As to your faith in God – or lack of it – I wouldnt worry. Some of the most faithful servants of God go through a patch where they just cease to believe he exists. I have gone through a lot with God over the years and have found myself prepared to tell him where to go. But the truth is if you dont have him, who have you got? Your faith can come back if you want it to.You may find it helps you through this, you may find it just to be a pain. But either way, you can go back to Him,if you really want to.
Living with the diseases you have cannot be easy, you have a lot to cope with for someone your age. But I think you should talk to a professional about this. Or your parents. Maybe if you can sit down together and you can make them see how you feel…We all need the suport and love of others.
Also, try talking to your school – maybe they can sort some kind of arrangement out – a private tutor or something.
As for your ONE GOOD REASON TO STAY ALIVE…Its simple. You’ve only got one life. You could have years ahead of you full of amazing situations which you can presently only dream of. There are always things which will harm us in life, some more than others. But if you can hang in there, I am SURE that things will get better for you. You have the most precious thing and that is unknown years on this wonderful planet. Others miss out on that through no fault of their own. Just think how lucky you are to wake up every morning and of all the experiences you have yet to experience. These are the things I think of when I feel life couldnt get any worse.
I hope things work out for – you’re like every other human being, your too precious to simply waste your life with a drug or a short walk off a tall cliff.
ngaire m on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
why worry about what every one ea-ls says and does,how about thinking about what you want,know parent would think that way,if they do they don’t deserve to have children,you might be sick but thank god your still breathing,come on life’s so great,cant you try and spend a little time with your friend,invite them over once a week to watch a dvd or a bar by,life’s what you make it,look in the Miro tomorrow morning and tell your self your going to get better,and do it good luck
12Bravo on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
I was exactly where you are when I was 18 (I’m 26 now). I wanted to kill myself — actually, most of the time I hoped that I would die in my sleep. But listen, it’s important that you get through your depression by talking with a trained, professional counselor at your school or wherever you can get true help.
A lot of people have gone through what you’re going through. It seems hopeless to you now, but it gets a whole lot better — you can’t even imagine right now (because you’re depressed). So, basically, you’re demoralized about your health conditions because you feel like damaged goods — but everybody is damaged goods — EVERYBODY. You aren’t alone. I had the kidney stones, too. They’re painful and I actually cried on the floor one time. I also had this crazy rash, with puss boils and everything. And I was going bald. But now I just cut my hair short and I don’t care.
Also, don’t worry about believing in God. I never believed in that fairy tale stuff and I’m doing fine. But if you do want to believe in God, think of this as one of those cool things he does to show how much he loves you.
When I got through my depression, which lasted for a couple of years, I had a stronger character and more self-confidence. But it wasn’t easy. You can do it, too. But only if you don’t kill yourself.
Avishay Z on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
Dear Hammy, i can only say to you what i know, and be sure that i speak from the bottom of my heart. i have a friend who sufferers from cancer, unfortunately he doesn’t have much time, and he is pretty much just pinned to the bed all day. I asked him once why wouldn’t he just end this. his answer will fallow me for the rest of my life.
" i can always just give up, but why now. more then that, i think about it in a different way, i only got two options, if i kill myself and there is a god I’m F__ked, and if i kill myself and there is no god I’m also F__ked."
think only on the big picture.
Aleasha M on August 27, 2010 at 7:00 am
honey first off, kidney stones arent a disease everyone gets them, which kinda makes me wonder if your making this up. 130 pounds, stop gloating poopie. I am sorry about your chron’s disease but get over it there are millions of people with diseases its the way the world is. I understand the school shit, ive got assignments coming out my teachers asses like dierrhia. I also know the whole religion thing at this point i dont think u should dwell on it. Its hard growing away from something so stable in your life, but thats no reason to be irrational and stupid. Your going through a tough time and friends will only realize that if their going through the same thing, they just need to get used to change. fyi your ex seems like a weak whore.